I don't know how to put the life W16M had given me in words. It's seriously undescribable/indescribable/indescripable/undescripable. Aiyah whatever. I really really seriously wish I had a time machine, and then go back in time. Especially the night where we all stay up and just talk about all kinds of things, without a care in the world, and then laugh at our own risk. The atmosphere was just so happy and carefree. The chalet was no doubt, the best I ever had. Booze, cigs, laughter, cold jokes, jumping, talking, eating, drinking, poking, and what have you. Everything was just so great with you people, love you all many many.

Haha, my blog is in such an xxx state. I shall make it all happy again :D
Anyway, today was buddies' night out. I went shopping alone at F21 and in the end Aaron had to wait for me to finish my shopping. Then I tortured him even more by going into Topshop. But in the end, he was the one who bored me with his grandmother stories (sorry, but they were interesting still :)) and I didn't had the mood to grab anything. I realize Topshop is getting more and more boring. I always end up at the accessories section. Okay, random. So then we waited for Nana to make her grand entrance at Orchard MRT. Then waited for her other friend to get something before we had the wonderful dinner at Swensens. We had such a high time and considering that Nana just recovered from her hangover last night, xxxing in front of her computer. So movie-like right. Imagine her gulping down alcohol, with tears in her eyes in the dark, in front of her laptop, reading what people comment about her as a close friend. Hahaha, oh my tuhan. Okay, so during the dinner, we were having fun with the waiters and the managers (sounds wrong, haha). The manager (or the 'Funny Man') was daydreaming I guess, he over-filled my cup with water and spilt all over the floor. Hahaha, so darn funny can. Then we took siao ding dong photos and cocked here and there.

Oh Nana, I'll always be in your heart. Aaron can take the backside and Zack your breast. Hahahahahaha. Goodnight.

This Huzai, see his face (on top), so proud. Want me to do special request for him, that is, to continue his testimonial and make it the longest in the world. For the past 16 weeks, I feel that he is very thick-skinned. For example:

See, proof. Huzai is a bully as well. Haha, okay lah. I shall be nice and say nice things about you. Huzai hates colors. He only wears black, and I don't know why. Huzai seldom comes to school, always so low-profile and quiet. He is mysterious and creepy.

He is a policeman, so watch out. He is a very busy person, busier than my father. He seldom goes out with us so it's hard to get to know him well enough. Huzai has a band, and he doesn't invite us to his gigs. Huzai hates Mr. Fish and always complain about him. I only remember watching videos on youtube with him and laughing like siao peoples. Huzai's laughter is very high-pitched. Hahaha. Okay I don't know what else to say about you but here's your testimonial, again. Thank you for being the number 1 friend, okay? Happying? Okay.

TO THE BOLD & BEAUTIFULS <3

So finally I'm back on after 34653424 donkey and monkey and camel years. These few days had definitely been damn fucking great for me. Yes, fucking. I cannot express how much I feel these few days, it's too much (Awwww). I know I know. I sound so emo, well, that's basically the mood for everyday. I shall summarise the past few days for an easier read.

There were heaps of crazy and retarded videos taken in class and outside class. Mountains of photos for your puking and laugh-till-you-berak pleasure. I'll put up the photos when I'm free. By then, my blog would be flooded, literally. Ranjitterbug became high all of a sudden for the past 3 days, I def don't know what's gotten into him. But he's high in a good and fun way, haha. Well, the usual raping cases and sumoslams are going on still but two times the rate because for the fact that the irritating UTs are over and done with and W16M has so much free time on their hands that we had to resort to such painful measures. I pity Zack so much :D Hoho. Oh yeah, today is def super the duper EMO! This word is getting quite annoying, I shall replace it with triple X's. So yeah, everyone was damn xxx. All the girls cried and it made me feel so damn hot but I bit my tongue so the tears didn't come. If it were to crawl out, I would flood the classroom. I'm such a baby, kns. I don't care lah okay, don't care. So yesterday we stayed back in the classroom after Cognitive and sang all the saddest songs in the whole world. AHHH, gawd. I can't express how much W16M is so superrrr united. I had to exaggerate on the word 'super'. It's really too many many. Okay, this entry would be more of a dedicating-to-the-cute-and-the-prettys of W16M. It's going to be like a freaking book of testimonials to all the people I care for. So read on if you are like damn bored and stuff:


Liyana (NANA)- So happy to have known you! Got tgt during the freshmen orientation. We were in the same group as Yoyo and Irene also! Then Irene went M.I.A so it was only 3 of us retardings. You taught me scandals and now I use the word like a drug. You're such a sunshine! :) Hoho, touched? & you slept with me before! (OOPS) don't wai wai ah. You're also the first person I went to Zouk with! Hahaha, funniest thing ever was that Ranjit thought we were xxxbians. Hahaha oops! Man, I really cannot believe that all the fun times had to end. We cannot be crazy together already, it's damn the fucking sad, like oh my tuhan! I cannot poke you anymore and you cannot tease me anymore. I cannot hear your nonsense and your abracadabra ideas anymore. And no more bubble tea fetish to share with. And cannot tease you with the wanton mee seller (you know who), OOPS. I love you so much okay, thank you for being a supercalifragilisticexpialdocious friend, wow. Like totally.


Hwee Chee (YOYO)- I am also so so so happy to have known you my niao niao! Hahaha, will never forget that time when we were playing with Jing Ying's laptop talking cock on her msn with her China friend. Hahaha, and that was how niao niao came about, no? 'Ni Hao Niao Ma?' Hahaha. You're a trustworthy person, anything also can come and find you to talk about. But I so shy, I lazy to share my things also. Hahaha, oops. Oh man, niao niao, can't believe we have to be in separate classes next semester already. DON'T CRY AH PREASE, don't cry in front of the computer. Shame, shame. You know, everytime when you cry in class, sitting all alone, I always feel so helpless. I helpless until I can only provide tissue paper. I can be labeled as 'tissue lady' already (sorry hor, not aunty okay). Only Nana can hug and comfort you and all lah. Hahaha, right Nana? :D Anyway, I'm so glad I got to know you, you're so cute lah. Hahaha, shy right, happy now right. Hahaha, LOVE YOU YOYO! & move on with life okay, don't be so emo and always think so much. (Trust me, so many more thick eyebrow guys who play guitar out there waiting for you to love) Weeuweet! Hahaha. All the best for next semester's class okay? Jiayou. Oh my god, I'm cheena.


Tay Kai Heng (ZAAAACK)- Hi Zoe Tay. Hahaha. I forgot how I became so close to you also. Maybe through Nana then I got to know the dark side of you. Zack, you know what? You're damn cold, cold until I have to wear jackets, sweaters, socks, mittens, ear muffs and all the things you wear in winter in sunny Singapore. But sometimes you cold until can also be damn funny lah, so that's one good thing. Hahaha. Love you also lah, okay? Eh, Nana loves you. You better love her back properly or else I fuck you upside down, and inside out. OOPS. You know I became so cheena is also because of you cos you keep listening to China songs. I from Western Potato become Sweet Potato. I don't know why sweet potato lah, maybe cos Chinese desserts always have sweet potato so I say sweet potato. (Brrrr) Sense something? Cold right, see lah. Talk cock somemore. And stop flattering yourself. I know your secondary school uniform tight for you already. Don't have to tell the whole world in your blog. Hanna, you have packs already lah, have mountains already lah. Jealous okay, jealous. Anyway, you're fun to work with in a team also cos you have all the 6th Ps and so many lobangs from your friends. The sianest day also can become unsianned by you lah, cos you're bloody cold. Before I end off this stupid part for Zack Zainal, I have one more thing to say, we all love to torture and rape Zack. Kai Heng, thank you for being such a great friend :) You feel molested now?

Aaron (BUDDY)- Hey there! You're damn loud you know, as in the use of profanities and all. Sometimes can be quite irritating when you scream 'Fuck lah!', 'Nabeh', 'Cheebye' and all the colorful words in the Coxford Dictionary. But all in all, you're still my friend and I love all my friends and that makes you one of them. Hahaha, touched? You're trustworthy also. The guy with all the rock songs which made Ronny complain so much. Haha. You and Joe look so charming playing the guitar and singing the class song (melts). Haha, future rocker lah. Cool cool. You also like to 'touch touch' here and there ah, itchy hand. Hahaha, don't wai wai also. But it's alright, I know lah. I would definitely rather you 'touch touch' and mess up my hair than the wanton mee seller (you know who). It's better if no one touches. Hahaha :D Thank you for being my friend these past 16 weeks. Love you.

Adel Nashruddin Bin Ahmad Ibrahim Aibideen (CAMEL/LLAMA)- Camel! :D I still don't know why I called you that. Maybe because of the way you look when you smile (haha, kns sounds like a song). Your teeth reminds me of the camel lah. Sorry okay, sorry. Poke me another time but not now. I also forgot how I got to know you so well already. Anyway, to cut things short, thank you for being there for me at times when I had diarrhea and vomited like crazy and when I had no one to talk to and stuffs. Haha. I was such a nag lah, sorry and thank you. You are also damn the funny person, like really funny, really really seriously super duper funny. Sometimes you do crazy and retarded things and I don't laugh, it's actually still quite funny cos you still look like a llama :) Thank you for updating me on Myspace thingamajigs and my Malay dictionary with all the nicest things in the world. Haha. Thank you for being such a joy to be around with. LOVEYA & all the best in your next new class. Never forget me okay, your ketiak will forever be the best also. Cocok Cocok, Yeehaw. Selamat Jalan.

Hisyam (HIDDEN TALENT GUY)- You ah, sometimes I find you a pain. I shall be blunt and say you're sometimes quite difficult to be friends with because when you say 'No', it really seriously means 'No'. Sorry Sir. You're not a Sir when you're my friend lah, be a friend can or not. Haha. And try to frown lesser although I know there are many problems in life and what have you. Smile and try to have fun lah, unbutton! Hahaha, like Zack. Thinking of you ah, only reminds me of all the little fights over nothing (okay, maybe there's something but I don't know what lah) in SMSes, and especially on MSN. All the little sagas, kns. All about you being (censored) and wanting to (censored). Don't be wai wai. To sum up, you're a great friend to depend on :D Can tell you all the secrets and you'll definitely keep it (I hope). Haha, being low-profile and all sure can right. Hahaha. You can be damn funny when you want to be funny and I know you can be damn scary and angry if you are seriously down in the dustbins. But life goes on, you can still share with me whatever problems you have. I'll always be there. Don't worry I won't be garang. You also don't garang ah. Semangat sikit :) Sometimes ah, I think to myself 'ape lu tengah cakap' cos I don't catch what you're saying but it's okay. Haha. That's it, we shall end the friendship here. Goodbye. Eh, joking lah. I know lah not funny. Now 1AM in the morning already you think I'm functioning well. I don't think so. WILL MISS YAAA.

Ronny (GUNAGUNACHAN)- I think I got close to you through this stupid phrase here. Hahaha. Ronny is gay gay one, and he is a cactus. You're so skinny can you please eat more and then go to the gym to build muscles. You look like cactus you know, and your hands are like girls. Eeyer. Gunagunachan ah you. Anyway, smoke less and practice singing more. Will wait for your appearance on TV. Then I will buy your album and you must not forget me when you're famous okay :D I will never forget the way you sing Jay Chou's song. Hahaha, you another one. Teach me to be Cheena, then I start listening to Jolin Tsai, Lee Hom and Jay Chou already, oh man. Hahaha, but anyway thank you so much Ronny! You brighten up everyone's day. Thank you for being such a great friend. Love you!

Ranjit S O Narayanasamy (RANJITTERBUG)- I don't know what to say about you. But thank you so much for being such an idiot sometimes but you put sparks into my life.Oh, you can be a bloody Gurmit Singh in the future lah, but I think you talk and act better than him. Take care and don't take drugs to you too.

S T Chandraganth (YELLOW BIRD)- You're not a saint okay, don't think you have 'ST' in front of your name makes you a saint.Chandragoondu! Goreng Pisang! Big Birdy! I'll never never forget you. Be thankful you still have your birdy face which I can remember for life. Sometimes you're also damn action, but you look funny when you gelek here gelek there. Cos you still look like big bird. Thank you anyway.

Kawanchai dsjvncuewrnvcporn (JOE)- You know I hated you in the beginning cos you were so bloody damn the irritating. Everyday you'll ask either 'want to go jogging?' or 'want to donate blood'. I want to slap you everytime you say that. Hahaha, but because I'm so nice I didn't. I stepped on your toe instead, enjoy right. The feeling shiok shiok. Hahaha. But then you didn't know the meaning of irritating and you continued your nonsense. Now it's 'aunty' and 'pimple' and 'pimple cream'. But nevermind, you make me angry and it's good for my health also. Cos I can scream and vent everything on you. That's why now so thick-skinned. You're damn good in researching also lah, so dominant in the team. So much leadership skills, cheychey. Happying now right. Takeshi Kanasai. You still owe me & Nana cheesecake okay. Better pay back or I torture your smelly feet more. Happy to have known you as a friend, thank you porn!


Huzai (BANGZAI)- Hello policeman. You also low-profile one, in class quiet quiet. But when you're noisy, you become crappy then you talk nonsense. Then we all laugh. Hahaha. Thank you for installing all the spyware and anti-virus thing on my laptop. Fanksyous. Be careful of Nana, she loves men in white. Haha. Everytime going to be late for school always SMS me, then complain here and complain there. lol. Anyway, thank you for being such a great friend all along. All the best :)


Kun Rong (AH LONG)- You ah, like small little boy but have a mind of a big man. Hahaha, sounds wrong. You're a damn smart guy, always on form when doing PPT then like to go around asking other group how many slides they have then you will want to action and do more than the other groups. Then everytime presentation all of us sian already. You present very well also and you have a lot of tokkong ideas. Your Science also lah, no need to say. I hear also sian. I think you're more suitable for my course, I can go and do Art already. Hahaha, you future Einstein and doctor lah. Anyway, you're a good friend to have, you always lead but sometimes lead too much people may not be happy so relax abit okay. Haha, thank you :D

Sharyfah (AFAH)- My funny girlfriend! I love you so much you know you know? You're so funny just by looking at your face I can laugh until I cannot tahan also. Your actions plus your 'panic face' equals to don't know what lah. But you're so funny. It's damn fun working with you and Nana also! Because we can both bully you. Don't go for abortion already okay? It's not good for your health cos next time difficult to conceive. Exercise more, then you can be the World's Next Top Model then Ronny and Ranjit will not make fun of you already. Hahaha oops. I will never forget the day when me and Nana were having break with you at the cafe at W1 canteen. WAH, tell you. That's the most action-packed lunch I ever had. Will always remember the incident with you in the toilet. Hohoho! You sit on the floor to pee, omg. Hahaha. Okay lah, sorry for making fun and disturbing you. Don't cry okay, will miss you. MWAH.

Wanting, Ma Jing Ying, & Jessie- You 3 girls are the sweetest in class, so sweet giving me diabetes. Wanting is damn pro in talking! Can imagine her as being the next president. Jing Ying and Jessie don't be so shy! You all can really do well in presentations. Thank you Jing Ying for the times when you taught me Chinese words and Jessie, remember you show me all the funny and weird photos from some website. Haha. Though I'm not so close to you all, thank you :)

Goldie & Charlene- You both like package lah, together with Ronny. Haha. Goldie has a lot of 'hidden talents' also. See you scary scary one actually you are very nice inside :) Your concert was very nice also. Haha. Thank you for inviting us. Charlene! The big jiejie of our class who is so fierce yet so sweet. After hanging out with you just for awhile today, I find that you are actually a very naughty girl ah! Hahaha, hope we'll have the chance to hang out again. Thank yous peoples for being my friend :) All the best.

Diana- You're so cute! Like sooo cuute! Especially your infectious laughter. Hahaha, enough said. You give me diabetes also. Thank you for brightening up my day.

Ho Thong (THONGS)- Almost forgot about you cos you're still in the freezer is it? Hahaha, you and Zack can host a talkshow about lame topics man. You're also damn the funny. Sometimes weather too hot can depend on you and Zack for cold jokes. Anything you say that are not funny in the end also become funny one. Cos bohochio ah. Hahaha. Thank you for being such a great friend! :D Okay you can go back into the freezer already.

Tien Siong (AH XIONG)- Nana's ex-husband. Why you don't eat her fried rice! See, it's your loss now that you both are divorced. Hahaha. You're a very cool guy ah, your face always so cool. Never change one. Happy or not happy, still the same. Good good. Like what the rest says, you have a lot of talents! Don't be shy, just show okay. Nice working with you during teamwork. You have a lot of ideas also, be more confident okay. Thank you for being my friend :)

Esmond (ESMOOND)- Hey there, all I know is that you dance well. And you speak well and you know your stuffs. Thank you for being my friend! All the best in your next class.

Zi Xuan- ZIXUAN! I won't forget the slap you gave me on my shoulder. I'm already so bony and you hit the wrong part of the shoulder. So pain okay. I was just trying to help you with my good intentions. But anyway, I don't think you know my blog and you won't read this but anyway, you're part of my life also. Thank you for being my friend :)

Slap me if I missed anyone out okay. I STILL LOVE YOU ALL, REALLY LOVE YOU ALL, NEVER BLUFF. Okay, cry now.

I Hope Your Heart Runs Empty

I have so many things to talk about. Hanging out with friends, school, stuffs, what I want, the coming end of the first semester. I seriously cannot bare the thought of leaving the fantastic people :( I promise not to be emo okay. So I shall continue ranting in my personal journal instead. Hahaha.

Useless wishes on a Thursday night:
I wish people would be more honest (and less fake).
I wish people would stop talking just to be talking.
I wish people would stop pretending. I wish people were less shallow.
I wish life was much more exciting.
I wish the world was a good place.
I wish life had meaning.
I wish things would be easier.
I wish things would be different.
I wish I felt more.
I wish I understood more.
I wish everything made sense (something would be OK too).

So Lavina left for Canada already, and I skipped Maths on Monday just so I could see her to the airport. Okay, I'm not really in the mood to blog these few days because I have so many things on my mind, mostly useless. I'll put pictures up the next time :D

Anyway, here's a recent class photo (I look like I appeared out of nowhere, ignore me):


Ahh, i'm still deciding on whether I should get the Holga 120FN.

Ogay,
I LOVE YOU PEOPLES.

YAY.

I hope my blog is viewable to all. The words are quite cranky on Internet Explore version 7.0 so if you're using that version, it'll be quite troublesome cos you'll have to highlight the words while you read unless I'm the stupidest person on Earth who doesn't know the alternative way to read properly. So yah, tell me. I don't know if the enetation comment thingy below is working as well, fuck. I don't care. Hahaha, sorry for being so moody right now. I've been online for 3433243324 hours fixing this stupid blog. I know, why the hell do I even bother. I nothing better to do lah okay.

Anyway, yesterday I went to catch the fireworks which was awesome! It's quite stupid, come to think of it. We waited 2 hours just for something that's going to last for 10 minutes. Yesterday was really an example of the kiasu spirit of Singaporeans. Me, Firaj and Aslinda found a place at the stairs infront of the Water Taxi 'office'. You know those small containers alongside the pathway beside the Singapore River. It's at Esplanade in case you're not following what I'm saying. So yah, it was around 6pm and the place was flooded already. Then we went hunting for Mukuman. Don't know where he flew to. Okay fast-forward.. Mukuman ended up sitting inside the 'office' of the Water Taxi and chatting with the ahpek. Hahhaha, damn funny lah. Then so we walked here, walked there, walked everywhere. Ended up at Peninsula after the terrible journey of ketiaks and sweaty people. Bought burger king and sat opposite Excelsior Hotel and laughed and crapped and talk nonsense. Then went home with Muks (plus his leftover drunkardness). OMG, I swear his jokes are damn sducuenvcevfd.

Okay, I have to go now. BYEBYE.

Listening: Oasis- Stop Crying Your Heart Out
(Speaking of crying, it reminded me of The Notebook which I just caught yesterday. It was freaking sad, I cried 3 times and my eyeballs almost fell out.)

You left it, I sent it I want it back. You left it, I sent it I want it back. If I had you here, I'd clip your wings. Snap you up and leave you sprawling on my pin. This plan of mine is oh so very lame. Can't you see the grass is greener where it rains? You left, I died, I went and you cried. You came, I think. But I never really know. I've served my time, I've watched you climb. The wrong incline. But what do I know. Accept it, Don't let it Turn the screw. Accept it, And let it Scream back at you. Now this applies both equally to you and I, The only thing we share Is the same sky. These empty metaphors, They're all in vain. Like can't you see the grass is greener where it rains? In the garden Snake was a charmin', And Eve said let's give it a try. Now lead us not into temptation, But no matter how hard I try. When in the garden and Snake is a charmin', And Eve says let's give it a try. Eve is the apple of my eye. And I lie behind you, And a cradle you in the palm of me. And I pat your hair down, I think will we sink or swim? 'Cause we could do either on a whim.

School's been starting to get on my nerves, especially today. I don't know, maybe it's the blues, aiyah so cliched. It's either the blues or the PMS just because I'm a girl. Makes no sense right, we always blame it on PMS. I'm sounding more singaporean. Thanks to the people around me, siala! Hahahaha, oops. Today 3 people bastarded Science module and I was left alone in class crawling. Nana! I missed you!! Where were you when I needed you! YOU WERE IN BUGIS HAPPILY SHOPPING AND TALKING ABOUT YOUR IMAGINARY BOYFRIEND! =\ So then I had to tahan throughout the whole day of gabra Physics. I couldn't understand a single shit from the worksheet except pieces of here and there. Then Joe just couldn't stop talking and my whole group was so engrossed in sex, especially when there is Mr. Ranjit in my team. Who can concentrate? Oh my gosh, I love my class so much. Yah, I was the only girl in the team. Imagine someone talking about the way they see girls and their private parts and saying that it's the most wonderful things they've ever seen. Ranjit's theorem: The Triple Fs', Flirt, Fuck & Forget! Go and die lah. Okay, so I spent my time drawing Ranjit. Chandra(gungungungungungungun) and Zack Zainal on my pink post-it pad. Laughing to myself just so I wouldn't feel so dead. Oh man, after so long of not blogging I have so much of things to say. Okay, sorry just mind me. It's past midnight and I usually have heaps of rubbish to talk about. Right now, I'm chatting with Tim who is also quite rubbish. We're talking about how loud I'm snoring. Yah anyways, I hope I'm going out tomorrow. I always sound like a moron when I text people, like what time and where we're going. I sound so excited in the text message but actually I'm not. I'm just afraid that I'm annoying the shit out of that person when I text. Okay, I've no idea what I'm talking about but yah I think I know what I'm talking about. SHIT. Everything is so confusing these days I even have ants living in the teeny weeny hole of a glue of my desk and fucking irritating that I have to press and kill them everyday. I pray to God everyday to cleanse my sins. Sometimes I confuse myself also, it's like 2 persons living in me. And it's so annoying it's making me paranoid everytime. And I hate to think so much because that would mean more zits on my face. Eehuck. It's going to be the end of the semester soon and it freaking sucks because it would mean I'm leaving W16M and leaving all the fantastic people I've met :( It's so crazy to think you could even cry when you're writing your rj about how you would feel if you were to change class. The 'if' wouldn't even need to be there because we ARE going to be in our seperate classes in the next semester. BOOOOO. Yah I know I know, changes are inevitable and ultimately we'll still be meeting new people, and more new people. I think we are just afraid that we'll leave the old in the lurch and then just go on with the new ones. I hope our old friendships still stay as strong :) You know what I feel like doing now. Have someone by my side and go on ranting till the next morning beside the swimming pool downstairs and have the humpty dumpty security guard stare at you. Oh my god, I have so much of feelings right now. I should go and sleep before I type more nonsense. You know, I keep the phone numbers of old acquaintances, people who I know I'll never talk to ever again in my entire life, in my mobile phone directory only so that it looks like I actually know people, so it looks like I have friends. Hahaha, I'm pathetic. My inbox is full. Okay okay, roll over now.

Listening: Pharrell- Number 1 (Ft. Kanye West)

sorry for the lack of posts lately. i didn't want to bore you guys with how suicidal i've been, how bad i feel these days and how much i want to have dollars in my wallet. i keep on talking trash but it seems like i never say anything. i'm so crap. so yeah, the latest:
cos i'm so lazy, everything would be in point-form.

- skipped class at 12pm
- rushed and changed at home
- met ruth & muks at bishan
- catched up with stuffs & watched videos on my laptop
- waited for timothy solomon pat the trick
- finally came after 243252 years
- muks couldn't stop complaining how hungry he was from bishan to orchard
- muslim food at fareast, fried rice was good
- window-shopped
- smoked
- redbulled which tasted like cough-mixure, yeehuck
- lepaked at McCafe
- talked cock & sing song
- followed muksy darling to ralph lauren & then him following me to topshop
- saw aslinda & firaj
- lepaked again
- met lavina & hazimah
- lepaked again
- went home tired

so yah.

ahh, sometimes i think to myself why the hell i want to blog just for the sake of doing it. i think i have online journals cos i need to remember things, but sometimes i need to organise my thoughts, and sometimes i don't know whether i'm right or wrong and that's where all of you step in. okay, i shall continue making adel feel loved. till then =D